And You Feel Like Falling Down. I’ll Carry You Home.

Tonight. We are young. So let’s set the world on fire. We can burn brighter than the sun.

This song is stuck in my head. Mostly because I’ve been hardcore listening to it for half an hour. My goal is to get through this week semi-peacefully. I feel so tense lately. It’s kind of crazy. I guess I’m just a bit more crazy than usual. I honestly just need an outlet for things. I have no way for stress relief, besides crying or laughing hysterically. Both are happening more and more often and it’s totally not healthy. Oh wells. I’m not healthy anyhow. Y’a know, I’m just trying to find a place in this world. One that fits. And I know I’m not going to find it in high school & I’m not a hundred percent sure college is the right move. Since I’m a dumb dreamer type, I just feel more and more stupid everyday for ever thinking any of this was going to work out. I feel like everything has just been a lie. Why did I try so hard when I’m not getting anything that I hoped for? Why did I kill myself over things that don’t even matter? Why did I wait for something to happen, instead of just making it happen myself? I guess I didn’t want it enough. Even though now, it feels like I do. And this post is probably super confusing because I’m talking about two different things but I really don’t care. My fingers just need to type this dang thing out so it can be released from my mind in some form. And I’m too tired to write in my journal.